2004-09-14 - 5:38 p.m.
I heard from my doctor today about last week's blood work. I had the triple-screen blood test that checks for birth defects like cystic fibrosis, Down syndrome, and spina bifida. My test came back negative. That means my baby is okay.
Yea!!!
I wasn't worried, to tell you the truth. It's something I didn't even want to put in my mind, actually. I wouldn't want to come this far into my pregnancy only to deal with whether or not to terminate it. Just thinking about that made me nervous. I didn't even want to bring up the "what if's" to my husband. I figured I wouldn't develop an opinion about that kind of situation unless I was faced with it. Even now, I really don't know what I'd do.
Thank goodness I don't have to worry about it. The baby is fine and that's all that matters.
I've noticed that I get really tired on my ride home from work. I can't wait to get into the car because I know that home is only a car ride away. My belly tells me when to go home. By about the last 45 minutes of school, I'm ready to go. I wish I didn't have to go to work and I could just stay home and watch my belly grow. I wish I could enjoy it more, but I have to work. I wish I could win the lottery, but to do that you have to play. I'm just not big on that. Will someone please win the lottery and give me enough money so I can stay home and be a Mama?
By the time I get home from work, I'm too tired to take a nap. I don't want to lay down because I know I won't be able to sleep at night. It'll take me forever to get to sleep. I went to bed at 9pm last night. I started watching a TV show and didn't even make it fifteen minutes into it. I didn't even wake up this morning feeling refreshed. I woke up tired again. My body just wants to sleep, but my mind doesn't let me sometimes. When I wake up, I'm slow, much slower than usual. Once I get started, I'm okay, but it takes forever.
I want to take a nap right now, but I shouldn't. What to do?
I'll feed the dogs, lie down, and hope I don't wake up until my alarm rings in the morning. Of course, then I won't get to see my Hubby. That sucks. He doesn't get home until 9:30pm and by then, I can't keep my eyes open anymore. I wish being pregnant didn't leave me so tired. If I didn't have to work, I wouldn't feel like this.
Would somebody please win the lottery and give me enough money so I can stay at home and be a Mama?
Listen to me. I'm repeating myself out of sheer fatigue.
I gotta go. I'm beat.
